the waiting game

ok this waiting game really sucks.

I already feel this way and it is only the first month of truly trying, but lets get real i have been waiting for this for as long as i can remember, which may possibly be longer then most people even have to try.


lets make some comparisons to what this is like...


So you are sitting in the airport after a 2 hour layover and find out that your plane will be delayed. so you wait, hour after hour after hour after hour, and FINALLY the plane comes. The flight attendants tell you they will board shortly. BUT no sooner do you board the plane and sit down do they deboard the plane due to some mechanical issue. Ya you guessed it, you will have to wait for another plane to take you home!

OR

You are completely out of food at home and all you want is to run down the street to Subway for a Sub. You figure this can't take too long. Well as you walk in you realize the whole town was thinking just like you tonight. so you will wait in line, it can't take long you are at Subway after all and they tend to be rather quick. so you wait ans wait and you are next up to order, your stomach is growling and you are so hungry you could puke. so of course the guy in front of you has a million subs to order for his family of apparently 500 people. Fantastic you will die in line waiting for your dinner! All you wanted was a quick sandwich...all i want is this period to come or not come already!

Ok maybe a bit dramatic but really this is hard to to. I consider my self pretty patient, i work all day with lots of little ones and i married Brandon!!! i am a patient person, but i have none for this. I am aware that some people wait a very long time and try forever to get pregnant, but just because i haven't been trying that long doesn't mean i haven't been waiting that long. i am sick of waiting.