appointment

doctor's appointment scheduled for jan. 13th at 3:50. i will probably have to take a half day off of work to make sure i get there in time. no big deal. still trying this month despite the appointment!

try try again!

well despite the nausea and lightheadeness my period started. it took all day just to fill one tampon, so it looks like it may be a very short period again, so i will most likely call the doctor after Christmas. i am excited to know that i am ovulating, and having "normal" cycles, so that in itself is a relief. so maybe i will get pregnant for my birthday! check back in 30 days or so for an update.

maybe not

ok this morning i took my temp and it was 97.25, that was not good, a drop means i will probably start soon. when i put it in my chart it told me it couldn't positively tell me that i even ovulated,so that was not a comforting little note! right after i took my temp this morning i took it again and that one was 97.72, i am talking seconds later, so not sure what that is all about??? i have no idea what temp to put in the chart. my realistic side says the low one, and my hopeful side says the high one, i think i may wait this out and see what tomorrow morning brings. hmmmmm...always a waiting game!

OVULATION

i never thought i would be so excited to ovulate, but having to wait 22 days to see if i was even going to ovulate was terrible. around day 16 i was losing hope and i was figuring i wasn't going to. SO i guess i was way wrong...i always thought i was an early ovulater but apparently i am not at all early! anyways it is no wonder we are not pregnant, we have not been trying this far into my cycle, so i wasn't even giving us a chance i guess. so now i will now for next month to start trying later in the cycle and continue through day 19 or so. we will see what happens next month. it is a relief to at least know i am ovulating, with these really weird periods i wasn't so sure.

chart

ok ladies, have you been checking my chart? is it normal looking??? i don't know what it should look like so just asking you to settle my mind! thanks for the help :)

hmmm...

well i called my gyno yesterday about some weird feelings i was having in my lower abdomen. I talked with a nurse and told her about my strange and very short periods. i had another 1 day period this month too. anyways the nurse called me today, after talking with the doctor. no worries about the lower abdomen feelings, they said if they continue to go to my regular doctor, could be a UTI but they are gone today so whatever!! however about the periods, my doctor wants to see me for an ultrasound if by January i don't have a more normal period. So that would leave me this cycle to get normal or go in to see her. so i guess we will see what happens with that. i will keep updating.

strike 3

well lucky for me we are not playing baseball. yeppers the period came on day 31...yuck. I had actually taken a test yesterday, wishful thinking i guess. but now i know how to do it!!! off try again.

weird

This cycle has just been down right weird. my ovaries at times feel like they want to fall out along with my uterus...not sure about all that. It is not painful like the first cycle off the pill but just annoying. My back has also been acting up. The other day it was so weak i felt as though i was going to fall over, and now it is hurting more then usual. All very strange. This going off the pill can apparently really mess you up. I figure my body is still regulating itself, but i would like my insides to stay there and stop trying to escape!!! :)

side note

ok so i was apparently built backwards. Instead of gaining weight before a period i lose up to 5 lbs. and that seems to be the only sign that i am going to have a period. When i was on the pill i would have moderate period pains, nothing major but i knew when it was coming. Off the pill however, i have noting...not one cramp, nothing. I just start!! Oh and i have a 2-3 day period rather than a 4-6 day period. this is all very strange...now i am not complaining, it is nice and all, but you have to admit it is weird!

i was right

well i guess i just needed to rant and rave for my period to start. I posted my rant last night and guess what started this morning! So no baby this month, on to the next!!! I am just glad the wait is over this month!!!

the waiting game

ok this waiting game really sucks.

I already feel this way and it is only the first month of truly trying, but lets get real i have been waiting for this for as long as i can remember, which may possibly be longer then most people even have to try.


lets make some comparisons to what this is like...


So you are sitting in the airport after a 2 hour layover and find out that your plane will be delayed. so you wait, hour after hour after hour after hour, and FINALLY the plane comes. The flight attendants tell you they will board shortly. BUT no sooner do you board the plane and sit down do they deboard the plane due to some mechanical issue. Ya you guessed it, you will have to wait for another plane to take you home!

OR

You are completely out of food at home and all you want is to run down the street to Subway for a Sub. You figure this can't take too long. Well as you walk in you realize the whole town was thinking just like you tonight. so you will wait in line, it can't take long you are at Subway after all and they tend to be rather quick. so you wait ans wait and you are next up to order, your stomach is growling and you are so hungry you could puke. so of course the guy in front of you has a million subs to order for his family of apparently 500 people. Fantastic you will die in line waiting for your dinner! All you wanted was a quick sandwich...all i want is this period to come or not come already!

Ok maybe a bit dramatic but really this is hard to to. I consider my self pretty patient, i work all day with lots of little ones and i married Brandon!!! i am a patient person, but i have none for this. I am aware that some people wait a very long time and try forever to get pregnant, but just because i haven't been trying that long doesn't mean i haven't been waiting that long. i am sick of waiting.

truly trying

well we actually truly tried this month. I didn't chart temps or anything but we did count days and followed a schedule. BUT...i am just not feeling it this month. I just really feel like this isn't our month. Again i hope i am wrong, but i can't seem to shake this feeling. so if i am right we will just try again next month. if i am wrong there will be updates soon!

Day 32

or what is now Day 1 of my new cycle. as i thought i started late. i really would have been OK to be wrong this month, but it is just our first month off the pill and we really didn't try. next month however is already marked on the calender, and we will be very "busy". :)

Hmmm...

I have been putting off posting because i have not gotten my period yet and typically it would have come on Thursday. However i am completely aware of the fact that this was my first month off and it may be late due to that, so i am doing my best not to get excited over nothing. I did have some spotting which could be a sign of starting or a sign of implantation, but i am leaning towards starting late. (Secretly i hope i am wrong).

As far as testing goes i probably won't even think about it until this Thursday if i still haven't started that would be a whole week late. so i guess we will all have to wait and see. Brandon knows i spotted and haven't started but i told him i will probably start late and he hasn't asked any questions so i figure he is fine with that explanation, i just don't want his hopes getting up for no reason, i will let him know when i am for sure one way or the other.

this waiting game totally sucks!

Dr. Appointment

Today i went for my Annual appointment. Basically i told Dr. Jones that we are wanting to get pregnant and she told me how to monitor my cycle, which thanks to my great friends i knew all about already!!! she told me to start taking prenatals and that she hoped to see me soon!! Other then that it was a basic appointment no surprises.

Brandon seems to be getting more and more excited. he is figuring out the schedule of events. i honestly never thought he would be so involved but i am super happy that he is. he told me today get my business taken care of (my period starting this Thursday) so we can start making a baby. i am so glad he is excited about this. he seems more ready then ever. this should be a great adventure with him!

Shopping

So last night brandon and i went to babies R us and shopped for baby items. We didn't actually buy anything but just looked and tried out some strollers. we has such a blast and it was great to see him so excited about a future baby. On the way out i told him now all we have to do is make the baby and we will be set to register!!!

speaking of making the baby, pretty sure that didn't happen this month. i am feeling the typical period pains and back aches, so i should be starting son. it is very weird for me not to know exactly when i will start. for the past seven years i have known the exact day and almost the exact hour i would start, so this is like my first time all over again.

we will continue our baby making once this has passed, i have a feeling we will be much more "active" next month. I even warned brandon that it will be often and for baby making purposes not just for fun. time to get serious and down to work! :)

Lets give this a try

Ok well my since just about everyone in the world has a blog page but me i thought i would give it a try.

I am not going to give out this address just yet, not until we tell the world i am pregnant, but i thought it would be nice to keep track of the journey this way. Plus when we do have the baby, the whole family and all our friends regardless of where they live will be able to share in our excitement and joy!!!

So speaking of having a baby and trying something new, we are now officially off the birth control pill and possibly making a baby. I am not charting or anything, that just isn't me (sorry girls!), at least not yet. I will just see what happens. So far not much...but it is only the first month pill free, and we haven't been very "active" which is kinda a must when trying to get pregnant!!!

ok i shall post more another time.