one more thing about formula

THE POOP IS NASTY!!!!!!!!

completely different then breast milk poop, and totally nasty!

formula trial day 2

well here we are nearing the end of our 48 hour trial and i can't say we have seen much change. we have had some happy moments and some screaming moments, but nothing different then what a good day would have been for kinsley anyways without changing anything. we do have good days here and there. i did notice that her eating habits are crazy and will discuss that with the doc when we go back to talk about all of this, i will also ask if we should see a pediatric GI.

overall though i am thinking we may just have a very demanding child on our hands, which is fine, i just wanted to make sure i covered the bases in case something more serious was happening. i mean when you combine me and brandon you are bound to get a kinsley!!!!!!!

so as you can just imagine if you know my history i am extremely sore after all this pumping to keep my supply up and i am not looking forward to the first few times i breast feed again, it is going to hurt. luckily i still have shield around here to use for some protection, but it will still hurt. i did get an ok amount of milk though so my freezer supply is looking good! maybe a date night is in order, we need to use up the older milk in the freezer anyways before it goes bad. after all this a night out with brandon would be nice!

formula trial

well first of all...formula is nasty!!!!

i always wanted to breast feed but originally said i would go to formula is i absolutely had too, however after all i have been through i still wanted to breastfeed more for a personal triumph then anything. but after just one day of formula..ya no i don;t think i will ever do formula. it is so nasty. kinsley smells like potatoes!!!!!!!! it is so gross. it looks nasty, smells nasty, just yuck all around. more power to ya if that is the route you choose, no judgment it is just not for me!

so far no change in her behavior either, still screaming and she doesn't seem to like the formula anyways. so it is even harder to feed her now. tons of fun here!

so if we due determine an allergy i will most likely be on some sort of special diet so she can still breast feed.

so i had to pump today and i am super sore..more fun. i also noticed alot more fore milk then hind milk so i called the LC just to see if that could be causing kinsley issues, maybe just not really filling up well, but they said no. it turned out i just did not pump enough and had to pump a little longer due to my supply amount. i have always had some over supply issues, and they did mention that mothers with over supply generally have more gassy babies which causes more fussy babies, so possibly that is the only issue we are having.

still figuring out miss kinsley, will keep you posted.

back to the doctors

on monday i took kinsley back to the doctors because she is still screaming alot. i asked all about the prevacid, can it wear off, is her dose big enough, how quick should it have worked??? etc. he said it should not be wearing off but did tell me to give her an extra 2.5 mls in the afternoon and see if that helps her get to bed time. as for the dose, alot of people have asked me about that and my doctor said 15mg is what a 150lbs man should be taking because dosage is based off of weight, so that makes sense that kinsley would only be on 5 mg. i am good with that answer i would rather not give her more then she needs, especially if we find out there is more to the issue then reflux. which leads me to the next plan. i am not to happy about this one but doing it anyways. if after changing up her meds for 2 days i don't see improvement then i am going to try a predigested formula for 48 hours and see what happens with that. it will be a quick way to see if something in my milk is causing the problem. i don't really want to do it, but it will be only 48 hrs and i will know for sure if i need to try more elimination diets. i will not just switch i will do more with my diet first. luckily we got a free sample from the doc. since it is the uber expensive formula to buy. so we may find out she has a food issue, or we may find out i just have the world's fussiest baby!!!!! we should know by the beginning of next week.

i spoke to soon

we are back to screaming our heads off. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! so we are going to go back to the doc on monday if things are still crazy. it could be a number of things (reflux, a cold, ear infection, she went 3 days no poop but did poop today, just fussy, etc.) but i want to go back anyways to see what the doc says.

oh and i am not crazy! my baby really does scream alot. of course she screams less when people are around or when we go to the doctors so everyone thinks i am nuts! but i swear i am not crazy and i am not exaggerating. why would i make up bad stories about my kid, if i was going to exaggerate i would say how wonderful everything is, not how terrible. noone said anything to prompt that but i just needed to vent. i feel like people think i am exaggerating how she is and i'm not. i know babies have fussy times but my kid is unhappy/fussy/screaming for the majority of the day, i just don't find that to be normal. i have read about high needs babies, and i guess she would fall under that category!!!! i just want to make sure we are not missing something, if she is just a fussy kid that is fine but i want to be sure so we will see.

ok so we are going nuts here but hopefully things will settle down someday!

pictures and updates!

update on the meds. so far so good. kinsley has been sleeping better and crying alot less. she smiles and is happy, today she even put her head down on my shoulder and just cuddled...i loved it!!!!! now we still have our moments and probably always will, we have a spirited little girl on our hands and she will always give us a run for our money!!! she has had a cold the last couple days too, very snotty!!! hopefully she feels better soon.

we put kinsley in her jumper seat!!! she seems to like it

just too cute!


my 2 favorite people sound asleep!


some bath time pics! kinsley still likes the bath, she never minds the water.

late update!

ok we had kinsley's 4 month appt. on tuesday and i am finally getting around to posting. she is now 13 lbs 10 oz. and 25.75 in!! still in the same percentiles. she also got some shots which later caused a slight fever and a very cranky and tired baby!

we discussed the reflux with the doctor and he gave us the prescription for prevacid and also told us to call if we don't see a difference to get zantac. so the first two days of the meds she was also fighting the reaction to the shots so we couldn't really see a difference. so today is the 4th day and 2nd day since she has been feeling better and i would say we had a good day today! she is burping without massive spit up ad i have not heard a scream all day. she is also right now sleeping for her 3rd nap of the day!!! that is crazy. she took a 45 min nap then a 1hr 15 min nap and now she is down again! that is super exciting for me! she is waking up happy too!!!!!!!! so i think the meds have made a difference but we will see what the next couple days bring too.

we also got her exercise jumper out and she thinks it is cool. she will bounce for a bit and play with the toys!!! i am so excited that she can use it now. not sure why but i love that she can play with that!!! it is a big step in my head.

i will post some pics when i get a chance.

silent reflux

i found another website about silent reflux and this mom's story is very similar to mine with kinsley. they way she said she was feeling is dead on, although i have not thought about dropping kinsley off at the hospital and leaving as she felt like doing with her son, i do feel like i am doing everything wrong and a day of screaming really wears me out, emotionally, mentally and physically. i do take my breaks and leave her screaming places to clear my head, but really that makes me feel worse sometimes. it is one thing if she is screaming because she is tried or something else but not when i now she is hurting on top of being exhausted and she just can't figure it out for herself yet. below is the link to the story if you feel like reading it.

http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/88167/the_symptoms_of_silent_reflux.html?cat=25

she mentions a few symptoms her son had that were not on the other site such as seeming to eat all the time or eating like crazy, poor sleep, gagging with own fist, and chocking. kinsley has done all of these. although her feeding has gotten better she does eat alot and when she eats she eats forever. also she gags herself with her fingers all the time now that she can get them in her mouth i thought that was just a baby thing but maybe not! and well her sleep just all out sucks, it doesn't happen at all!!! i think she is supposed to get 15 ours at this age and we are lucky if she gets 10, and that is with naps lasting all of 45 min. on a god day!! as for chocking kinsley has done that since day 1 and all the time, she turns beat red, gets teary eyed and coughs it out. that is her normal. oh it also mentioned burping alot...i always put that under the gassy category so i may have been wrong on that one, although she is a gassy girl too!!!!

as for my doctor, i am sure he will be on board. he has mentioned silent reflux, but by 3 months alot of babies figure things out and i was not mentioning all these symptoms because i thought they were unrelated. so we were taking the wait and see approach but i am tired of waiting!

i am continuing on with my diet but i just really feel like we will end up on meds. i feel so bad for her and just want to end her pain soon. today was a very rough day and it just kills me to know that she is hurting and has been for about 4 months now. i hate to think that her normal is pain.

hopefully by this time next week we will have this all figured out, the diet is for 2 weeks but if i see no change by the doctor's appt i will probably go the med route, at this point i just want her to be a happy baby, who is pain free.

i am not the best writer so hopefully you could follow all of that, but read the website, it is well written and is pretty close to what my every day is like. i will post others if i find any that help me explain myself.